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Crazy.

It's crazy how they're so alike.

It's crazy how I got close to both of them through texting/IMing. 

It's crazy how they're both Juniors when I first get close to them.

It's crazy how they're both chubby and awkward but have a good heart.

It's crazy how they both struggle with school and laziness.

It's crazy how I got so attached to them so quick.

It's crazy how they both became my best friend.

But I'm scared now.

Because I know I can get really emotionally attached to him. And then I'll get scared like last time and pull away.

I don't want to be attached to him.

Oh, and I hate how they both sometimes change how they act when they're around me. I loved their usual self. It gets so awkward sometimes.

Now, I wish I never told him that he was my best friend. I miss the way things used to be. How our conversations were.

It's so weird. So weird.

He's always so nice now it's awkward. I miss our teasing and banters and just making fun of each other. It was so carefree and simple and fun.

He and him both. They say things in texts that I can't see them saying in person. And I hate that.

I can't back away now, though. I don't think he's really had any good friends.

Ugh, I don't know.

I miss the way things use to be.