Haven't been on here in a while. So much has changed, it seems.
I'm attempting to type out my plan for next year, and it's hurting so much more than it should. Reading off Vincent's plan is reminding me of what I could've had, what I let go. I've made peace with the fact that nothing I think or do is going to change anything now, but I can't help but feel like I made a mistake by declining the acceptance. What if Nathan was right, and I was wrong? What if my parents were wrong? What if OSSM was where I was supposed to be?
I'm trying so so hard to trust that God has a plan for me, but what if His plan for me was to be at OSSM, and I messed it up? So many what-ifs. They kill you, you know.
